It hasn't been easy these months, these years. Growing up and reality does take a toll on you. As I'm writing this, it's 1:22 am I can barely sleep because of the coffee I drank earlier to study for my philosophy exam tomorrow but that's exactly what I'm not doing, which is studying. I only studied the first part of the exam which is about Plato's theory in epistemology and metaphysics. I kind of feel stupid for not studying hard enough for this. I even drank coffee for it. I should be studying instead of writing in my blog right now but I don't know. I'm not going to lie though, I'm not a big fan of philosophy and I'm definitely not a big fan of the professor. I also should be sleeping because I have class at 10 am tomorrow. Ugh will tomorrow be hell. Hopefully not. I haven't updated my blog, I guess that's why I'm writing and blabbing about random stuff. It's weird because I should be worried about my exam tomorrow but suddenly I'm worried about my whole life ahead of me. I hate staying up at this time. The only good thing about tonight is the fact that I found little inspirations and encouragement today. Me, my mom, dad and sister had a small bible study since we didn't get to go to church and at first I was upset, only because my mom did something to put me in a bad mood but it's all fine now. But I don't know, I think it's God working in my life with small things. Prayer is good. It's great that my mom decided to lead this bible study gathering because I probably wouldn't say anything first. So a whole recap of this week, I was probably sick as a dog. Cooked uneven eggs and the next morning, I vomitted everywhere.(not really but I threw up a lot). It's the worst feeling ever. I also got a fever from the food poisoning. Horrendous experience. But the weekend was good, celebrated my best friend's 19th birthday. By the way, if you ever read this, HAPPY BIRTHDAY REBECCA. You've been an awesome friend to me for 13 years now and I know we'll be best friends until were gray and saggy. I'm actually getting pretty tired from writing all of this. This might be the cure for insomnia. Goodnight
